At Twilight

Twilight soaks colour from the land
Like a dirty sponge pressing down
it empties the fields, the fenceposts, 
the sky, the pebbles in the path 

I can see the future
I can see the Enemy before I must engage Him 

Across the field
a walker and his dog
slink darkly through grasses nearly void of green
moving like pupils in a gaze that follows me
My dog strains the leash
pointing his black muzzle like
the gloved finger of an accuser

Kristin van Vloten
List of Experiences Occurring on October 14th, 2016
  1. Overwhelmed by the thought of what’s being pursued.  
  2. Dark old fears of histrionicism. 
  3. Creeping hyper-vigilance. 
  4. Hovering specters of failure and aimlessness. 
  5. Social comparison brain. 
  6. Mild pessimism. 
  7. Mild paranoia. 
  8. Doubts about handle on “reality”. 
  9. Beauty sometimes departs; humility takes over the watch.
  10. Dogged hope. 
  11. Pleasure and plenty of it. 
  12. Genuine enthusiasm and plenty of it. 
  13. A commitment to hard work and plenty of it. 
  14. High and low stakes vulnerability. 
  15. Convergent and divergent thinking. 
  16. Affection from the gut.  
  17. Mild embarrassment. 
  18. Lost in the mirror. 
  19. The reflection changes faces.
  20. The stark shadows of desire. 
  21. A lack of being held and then a fear of being let go. 
  22. Acceptance. 
  23. Shaking hands with the banal again, being congenial. 
  24. Serene nihilism. 
  25. Cute narcissism like a toddler’s.  
  26. Pockets of relief. 
  27. Expectations of goodness. 
  28. Little speckles of fear in a great shaking peacock tail of freedom. 
Kristin van Vloten
How Snakes Move

Walking the tracks
spining through
deciduous nests,
tangled trash,
landscapes fit
for imagining the end, 
which we do
as we walk.

How about
the end of yards
wedding rings
dogs tethered
sharking cars?

A snake sprints
from between
your footsteps,
a movement nobody
can explain.

You said scientists don’t
know how they do it. 
You said there are
mathematical anomalies. 
But later I read
they solved the problem.

So we know how snakes move
We know how it happens
We know where it’s headed
We know the end
We are moving towards it

Moving through yards
Moving through bedrooms
Moving with wedding rings
Moving with dogs un-tethered
Moving between sharking cars
Walking the tracks

Kristin van Vloten